I swear the last two weeks have taken a serious toll on my sanity.

I can only hope that next week when I'm over the hump on the crap that has been making me crazy that I'll be having a much better time.

And maybe next month I can share the secret that's been eating up my brain. (some already know).

I would not survive without the help of my close friends, my family and most definitely without my wife. Good god has she been making this last month bearable. I just wanted to call her out publicly for her incredible show of support to me every day. Thanks dear!!!!!

In the 'not shitty news' department, i got my latest ebay auction today.
Originally uploaded by Paul Timmins.

Grandpa Z, who for for the sake of clarity I'll call my "step grandpa" (though is any step family just step family and not really just a family you weren't born with? Not in my experience, anyway) passed away Monday.

Much like Grandma T last week, it doesn't come as a huge shock, as his health hasn't been great for at least a decade (though grandma's decline was far more sudden than that, but that's not the point) but it still hurts a little bit. His strange sense of humor and boisterous yet playful means of speaking will be missed.

Becky returns with compact fluorescent bulbs, and a plastic pikachu figurine I'm going to put on my monitor at work. yay!

Things are calming down a little bit at work. This is generally a good thing. That's all I have to say on that topic.

This week was pretty alright. I need to remember to replace that heavily damaged vacuum hose in my van. I am pretty sure it's why my transmission doesn't shift right sometimes. Either way it's fucked and needs unghettoing. It's been rigged for almost a year now.

Grandma's burial was pretty okay. There were some emotional moments but it went well. Grandma carried me when I was little so I returned the favor, with my dad and two other family members (I can't remember who the other two were).

The trip home was pretty uneventful, as was the trip up. Except that I ran out of gas on the trip up. Damnit.

Last week was pretty blah as a result. Hopefully this week and the following week will hold more promise.

I enjoyed what little time I was able to spend around my family this weekend. I would have spent more but I really needed the sleep I got Sunday. I needed that desperately.

Becky is currently out getting us our basic needs – TP and lightbulbs. An interesting combination.

I'm about to pass out here.

Just felt I should give an update before I got up to a week without one.

So yea, anyway this morning basically sucked balls.

I got to bed at like 3am, and then at 7:15 one of our agents calls me all pissed off* because our tech wasn't on a site when he said he'd be, and then the provisioner called, then the ceo.

So I roll on to work and my car needs gas, and I'm out of deoderant, so I stop and score both, and then as I'm almost to my work, my mom calls and says my grandma died. I tried to talk to my dad about it and give my condolences but his cordless phone died and then did that stay off the hook and be all staticky thing, and so I couldn't call back because they just have a normal pots line.

Then I get to work and get a lecture about troubleshooting procedures.

Then I slog through like 5 trouble tickets while doing countless meetings.

The day got slightly better from there, but not by much.

* The angst was justifiable but not how I felt like being woken up after 4 hours sleep.

Only upside today is I got some stuff we need at work and the ceo basically forced me to leave somewhat on time today.

Yesterday, I didn't even put on pants.

Today I woke up at 1pm, went to produce palace, and am waiting for clean socks to go and cut the lawn.

Tonight there is massive amounts of kabobs.

This weekend is basically like skipping a turn to regenerate mana.